anxious friday!

its friday and im dying to go cause a ruckus somewhere..
1. i need to work over time tomorrow and cant do it all hung over.
2. i dont want to go spend money right now
3. i dont want to run into the wrong ppl (horny guys)!
4. i have so much more to work on.
5. i dont have anyone around me right now id want to hang out with(prob a very good thing!)


Your horoscope for April 3, 2009 Today is an excellent day for you, Janice, in which you will discover many opportunities in your daily routine. You would do well working with others by tuning into your sensitive nature and chiming in to the energy of the group. Your grounding and stability is exactly what is needed to give order to the fluctuating and indecisive minds that you are working with.

so mixed up.

agh he.. omg so tired of talking about him!


Your horoscope for April 2, 2009 Slow down your pace a bit today, Janice. This is more of a day to sit back and observe. Soak things in and contemplate. Your mind may be going in a hundred different directions today, and you may not be sure which route to take. Try to quiet the buzzing chatter within. Be receptive to the loving and sensitive forces all around you. Try not to disturb the flow by bringing up unrelated issues and hurtful gossip.

curtains..

before and after...

salt

god.
why does it still have to hurt so much. just when i think things are going to be ok he texts and its like salt over an open wound. i wish i could just forget him. no i dont want to forget him forever just until it don't hurt to think about him anymore. god i miss him so much. i don't want things to go back how they were before but i can feel myself growing restless.. like i just want something to happen already. i don't know what but i hate not knowing what life is going to bring. god please just guide me to make good decisions. help me through this pain.

omg just let go already!

ok so texting is not helping at all! i need to just completely let go! and myspace might have to go too... agh.

Your horoscope for March 31, 2009 You might find that something or someone is purposefully trying to make things difficult for you today, Janice. It might seem as if you are trying to get a handle on the issues but somehow, things are slipping through your fingers like butter. Don't force yourself to make any major decisions and certainly don't try to herd people into corners. Let others have their freedom and consider simply riding out the storm.

lonely weekend.

friday was well would have been our one year anniversary. i wanted to ask him if we could hang out that day but he beat me to it.. asked if it would be cool if we hung out. said only if we could keep it about that day and not fight. well when the day came he sounded hesitant so i said prob not a good idea. he said well let me know if u change ur mind. i was so scared so i thought if we go to the movies that left little room to talk and would be less of a chance to fight.. but when i asked if he wanted to go to the movies he had already made plans. (he had called my from that whore bag of a friends phone) so im guessing he had plans with them. i was crushed. but didnt let it get to me. so later that night he texted me i love you. i replied ditto. and he accused me of being drunk.? wtf.. just told him hurts to keep saying it. like im being strung along. so he said he was sorry and he wouldnt say it anymore. sigh.. was long long long night.. had to work over time the next day. and also had to get ready to go to santa cruz! took bee and two friends. to the mystery spot. was cool but man do i need to make some cool single friends! bee of course took off with her friends so i was mostly by myself. usually im pretty ok with being alone.. but since this break up.. man i just miss him so much .. we would of had such a great time! .. :( but it sucked. i sat on the beach by myself.. tried reading my book but agh was so not into it.. i could see all the stupid lovey dovey couples walking around. anyways i survied. sunday was pretty non productive.. had so much i wanted to do.. but sleeping just felt so much better. i did however make bee her curtains.. look so cute!

Your horoscope for March 30, 2009 The key to being successful for you today, Janice, is to maintain an air of stability and grounding. If others see you as being too flighty and off the wall, they will be hesitant about putting their trust in you. Make sure you do things in your power that will help boost your clout. You will need this support from others later on. Creating a solid base from which to build on is key.

bees room

so yes we have tons of projects going on here at home. this house really sucks and im trying to make it more of a home.. so far i got carpet and already is 100xs better! so lots of cleaning up and throwing out junk. bees room has a theme now that we are working with.. we painted her dresser and last night i went and got fabric and paint for her room! its aqua green and brown.. looks good together. and poka dots!