another somewhat productive night. tonight is recovery group. i HAVE to go.
Your horoscope for January 29, 2009
Get yourself grounded today, Janice. Lay a solid foundation for the future. This is a very critical time in which you must think realistically about your future success. Realize that you must incorporate an element of restriction in your life before your dreams can be actualized. Today is one of those days in which you can fuse together a powerful combination of fantasy and reality in order to build success.
Thursday, January 29, 2009
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
last night
was pretty.. emotional buffet-ish!. sooooo much going on with both of us. both dealing with things in our own ways.. mostly getting it wrong.. the out come will always be unknown.. but sometimes leans to the lighterside of life..walls down, fingers crossed, hearts exposed.
Your lovescope for January 28, 2009
Don't waste a minute hanging onto regrets, as they will only weigh you down unnecessarily. The planetary constellation encourages you to let go of anything that is holding you back, and to take a positive step forward. You will attract a far better relationship if you can leave old emotional baggage out of the picture and focus instead on what you do want.
Your lovescope for January 28, 2009
Don't waste a minute hanging onto regrets, as they will only weigh you down unnecessarily. The planetary constellation encourages you to let go of anything that is holding you back, and to take a positive step forward. You will attract a far better relationship if you can leave old emotional baggage out of the picture and focus instead on what you do want.
show me what im looking for
wait, i'm wrong should've done better than this please, i'll be strong i'm finding it hard to resist so show me what i'm looking for save me, i'm lost oh lord i've been waiting for you i'll pay any cost save me from being confused show me what i'm looking for show me what i'm looking for oh lord don't let go i've wanted this far too long mistakes become regrets i've learned to love abuse please show me what i'm looking for save me, im lost oh lord i've been waiting for you i'll pay any cost save me from being confused show me what i'm looking for show me what i'm looking for oh lord show me what i'm looking for show me what i'm looking for show me what i'm looking for save me, im lost oh lord i've been waiting for you i'll pay any cost to save me from being confused wait, i'm wrong i can't do better than this i'll pay any cost save me from being confused show me what i'm looking for show me what i'm looking for show me what i'm looking for show me what i'm looking for oh lord
-carolina liar.
-carolina liar.
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
because i laughed
that's what triggered him? but he was going off before i laughed? i laughed in part yes to make him mad (my bad for resorting to such childish behavior but I'm at a loss with him) but also because i was outraged.. stunned.. i couldn't believe that's what he was mad about. me and bee shower to long? had he never had to pay a bill? does he not know about bills? the water was only 30bucks.?
OK he says i put all off on him and that makes him angry. OK how do i take on my part? what do i need to say? do? i shouldn't of laughed.. yes i know. it was a bad reaction. what now? he keeps saying these things these reasons why i should just go but they are his reasons not mine. says that's how i make him feel. is that how I'm coming off? or is it his perception? is his perception skewed? or am i really that bad to him?
money. i cant just let it go. i think its not fair. but its a very touchy subject. i dont know what takes precedence right now. but it angers me so much that i got fucked over.
OK he says i put all off on him and that makes him angry. OK how do i take on my part? what do i need to say? do? i shouldn't of laughed.. yes i know. it was a bad reaction. what now? he keeps saying these things these reasons why i should just go but they are his reasons not mine. says that's how i make him feel. is that how I'm coming off? or is it his perception? is his perception skewed? or am i really that bad to him?
money. i cant just let it go. i think its not fair. but its a very touchy subject. i dont know what takes precedence right now. but it angers me so much that i got fucked over.
Help!
i need help.! how can i turn my back on someone i love?? i dont even know if i can help him.. but i cant stand the thought of not trying.
damn him
damn me. i miss him so much. just stupid little things. i just want to rip my fucking heart out. i don't want to feel. if yesterday is really him i don't want to be around him. keep me strong. i deserve something better.
crazy
crazy dreams! i love sleep! better i love my crazy dreams! i wish i hadnt woken up! i remember some of it but as soon as i wanted to remember the rest it was gone.. but man was it crazy! car chases tattoos hawaii! crazy crazy crazy!
Your horoscope for January 27, 2009
Being married to someone for fifty years takes work, Janice, and no one said it was going to be easy. Hollywood seems to be the one exception to the rule. These people promote a fantasyland that makes our own lives look pathetic, drab and boring. Realize that your life can be just as good and interesting, if not better. Today is a good day to prepare for future growth.
:( dunno bout all that.. future right now well at least the future of my love looks bleak. :(
Your horoscope for January 27, 2009
Being married to someone for fifty years takes work, Janice, and no one said it was going to be easy. Hollywood seems to be the one exception to the rule. These people promote a fantasyland that makes our own lives look pathetic, drab and boring. Realize that your life can be just as good and interesting, if not better. Today is a good day to prepare for future growth.
:( dunno bout all that.. future right now well at least the future of my love looks bleak. :(
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