A year of nothing..

So last year i lost the love of my life and my best friend.(they didnt die just not a part of my life anymore)I vowed to be a better me but all i did was just get stuck. I feel like all im doing is just flowing. not growing not progressing .. im just letting time drag me along. for a while i was so focused on just having fun.. and ive def had fun but i think im pretty over it. im burning out. im not enjoying it as much as i used to. i want to focus on bettering my life. paying more attention to Bee and moving out and upward with life. idealy id like to have my man by my side but ive learned i cant force that.. just wait for it to happen. so my thought today is to get on the ball. i need to find a way to get unstuck. try and stay away from the bar little by little. start sewing again. spend more time with my family.