my heart

hurts sooooo much... i cant handle much more. hes crushing me. hes going to do everything he can to just finish off my heart. i told his mom i would be strong for him but i dont know what im going to do. everything he says hurts me so much everything he does just kills me. how do i stay so strong for someone who does not want me around? god he hates me. i hate crying. but i cant stop. all these thoughts keep popping into my head. i want them gone. i want him back. what happened. why cant i just have love? all i want to do is love him.