salt

god.
why does it still have to hurt so much. just when i think things are going to be ok he texts and its like salt over an open wound. i wish i could just forget him. no i dont want to forget him forever just until it don't hurt to think about him anymore. god i miss him so much. i don't want things to go back how they were before but i can feel myself growing restless.. like i just want something to happen already. i don't know what but i hate not knowing what life is going to bring. god please just guide me to make good decisions. help me through this pain.