just rip it off..

i didn't want to rip the band aid off fast. i think the pain will be unbearable but the pain of staying longer when i know its over seems too confusing. one min im very aware that i have to go im planning to be alone..... next he touches me, looks at me, talks to me... and i just want to hold on to him and never ever let go. i wish i didnt see him in my future. i wish i hadnt made so many hopeful plans. god i love him.