lonely weekend.

friday was well would have been our one year anniversary. i wanted to ask him if we could hang out that day but he beat me to it.. asked if it would be cool if we hung out. said only if we could keep it about that day and not fight. well when the day came he sounded hesitant so i said prob not a good idea. he said well let me know if u change ur mind. i was so scared so i thought if we go to the movies that left little room to talk and would be less of a chance to fight.. but when i asked if he wanted to go to the movies he had already made plans. (he had called my from that whore bag of a friends phone) so im guessing he had plans with them. i was crushed. but didnt let it get to me. so later that night he texted me i love you. i replied ditto. and he accused me of being drunk.? wtf.. just told him hurts to keep saying it. like im being strung along. so he said he was sorry and he wouldnt say it anymore. sigh.. was long long long night.. had to work over time the next day. and also had to get ready to go to santa cruz! took bee and two friends. to the mystery spot. was cool but man do i need to make some cool single friends! bee of course took off with her friends so i was mostly by myself. usually im pretty ok with being alone.. but since this break up.. man i just miss him so much .. we would of had such a great time! .. :( but it sucked. i sat on the beach by myself.. tried reading my book but agh was so not into it.. i could see all the stupid lovey dovey couples walking around. anyways i survied. sunday was pretty non productive.. had so much i wanted to do.. but sleeping just felt so much better. i did however make bee her curtains.. look so cute!

Your horoscope for March 30, 2009 The key to being successful for you today, Janice, is to maintain an air of stability and grounding. If others see you as being too flighty and off the wall, they will be hesitant about putting their trust in you. Make sure you do things in your power that will help boost your clout. You will need this support from others later on. Creating a solid base from which to build on is key.